Givethanks

Clayton "SHREE HARI" Barker's GOAL: Writing Down 10,008 Appreciations by 2029

1. I am grateful that there are 58 Sikh Gurdwaras in California 
2. I am grateful that God is One
3. I am grateful for my Bear Dance brothers
4. I am grateful 50 Cent survived being shot 9 times and has helped a lot of people have jobs
5. I am grateful for Sikh Langar 
6. I am grateful that the Amritsar Sikh Gurdwara in Punjab feeds 200,000 people a day and has 3,000 dishwashers
7. I am grateful for Harbin hot springs and chanting mantras in them
8. I am grateful Shree Maa is adept at silence 
9. I am grateful for Dr. Paul True and his accepting what is
10. I am grateful to bow down to God on my knees often and do full body prostrations with my head on the ground to keep my self-conceited haughty fickle nature down and dissolving into the ocean of divine love like a salt doll at sea dropped off a sailing loop by a seasoned mariner
11. i am grateful to attend the 2am wahe guru simran here at the Tracy Sikh Gurdwara Prakash and amazed by their 2am to 7am daily meditation schedule 
12. I am grateful Sikhs are so amazing at serving Langar food to so many people 
13. I am grateful Guru Nanak Dev is one of my many spiritual fathers
14. i am grateful I chanted over 200,000 mantras inside Siskiyou County jail 
15. I am grateful I sang many many Bear Dance songs inside Siskiyou County jail and made Indigenous Men cry from the healing vibrations of brotherly love
16. I am grateful I will shoot many Shree Hari Darshan emails during a community conflict rather than deploying physical violence and court retribution vindictive punishments through the colonial court police state built on the rape and genocide of 20,000,000 Native Americans
17. i am grateful for my beloved 24 gurus in the lineage of Avadhuta Dattatreya, the 2nd Sat Guru after Lord Shiv
18. I am grateful for the constant love of Mother Earth and Mother Africa
19. i am grateful I have renounced the Hindu caste system and have made up my own religion called "Out of The Boxism"
20. i am grateful that Satyananda taught me that having a sankalpa can help me overcome a conflict 
21. I am grateful I can change my attitude and start over any time I want and pick myself up and dust myself off anytime I want
22. I am grateful I feel fresh after staying up for a 2am meditation on Wahe guru with my Sikh family at Tracy Gurdwara
23. i am grateful I warned the perverts at the Divine Mother Hindu temples that if they do more of those sexual batteries on people they are gonna get their hands chopped off and get castrated. The Old Testament of the Holy Bible recommends chopping off hands, castrations, and beheadings during war.
24. i am grateful I am also trained in Gandhian Nonviolence activism and I am versatile between war tactics and peace tactics
25. i am grateful for my Nihang Singh Sikh Kanga for honor and protection 
26. I am grateful the Sikhs taught me to carry a knife in my pocket to prevent sexual violence in the community 
27. I am grateful that Shree Maa, Amma, Swami Satyananda, and Swami Dayamritananda are some of my greatest teachers of all time, in part because we have a great Dharma battle going 
28. I am grateful to prayer, chant, cold plunge, and exercise by Swami's Beach at Yogananda's Self Realization Fellowship in Encinitas, CA
29. I am grateful that the Hindu Divine Mothers Amma and Shree Maa and their Hindu Swamis and their Rich Coordinators are the most difficult obnoxious button pushing people I've met since 2008
30. Grateful for Raw Salmon
31. Grateful for the Six Step House in Encinitas, CA
32. I am grateful Swami Satyananda Saraswati of www.shreemaa.org is very stubborn and won't agree to Restorative Justice Systems
33. I am grateful I have expressed myself very fully on email to many Hindus and my friends on email for 15 years
34. I am grateful that Swami Dayamritananda Puri of www.amma.org is very stubborn and won't agree to Restorative Justice Systems
35. I am grateful for morning sun rays
36. i am grateful Jesus saved me when I tried to strangle myself 6 times 
37. I am grateful I pray to be divorced from self pity, dishonesty, and self seeking
38. i am grateful for baby Bannanas
39. i am grateful for reggae mantra music
40. i am grateful to have a pillow
41. i am grateful to shower whenever I want
42. i I am grateful that some things just don't work out too good and some doors close
43. I am grateful to challenge the caste system of Hinduism 
44. I am grateful that Amma's and Shree Maa's promises haven't come true yet
45. i am grateful that some prayers just don't get answered 
46. I am grateful for all wealth and prosperity to serve God
47. i am grateful for beach showers
48. I am grateful for ocean cold plunges
49. i am grateful my emails are evolving into blogs, podcasts, books, standup comedy writing, tv shows, and movies
50. i am grateful my soul lives all over the universe 
51. i am grateful I got to worship and pray at the Rock Church today in San Diego and listen to a familiar message from Pastor Miles
52. I am grateful I got to go pray and make an offering to Avadhuta Dattatreya today at the Shirdi Sai Baba Cultural Center in Miramar today and perform mantra japa
53. I am grateful I am slowly slowly veering away from using my writing talents on email and working to shift my focus to this blog, book writing, standup comedy writing, spiritual hip hop music writing, taking a creative writing class, writing a Pod Cast show called "Iron Bar of Restraint" on Talking Chit TV, and eventually writing a movie
54. I am grateful I got to go meditate at the Temple of Joy in Encinitas, CA today and perform mantra japa and offer rose petals to the Divine Mothers in the form of Durga, Kali, and Saraswati as well as Shiv, Neem Karoli Baba, Yogananda, Babaji, Krishna, Jesus, Ganapati, Vishnu, and Hanuman
55. I am grateful I am Divine Light, at my core
56. I am grateful there are lots of ways to reach self realization 
57. i am grateful I am fighting to stop the dharma battle with the Hindus over the sexual misconduct that goes on at their ashrams
58. i am grateful to be sober today 
59. I am grateful I gave up the single monk path to become a Spiritual King Householder Servant of Community
60. i am grateful god is in charge and we have free will
61. i am grateful I fight hard for social justice 
62. I am grateful to eat pizza and think of god
63. i am grateful I am careful for what i say to certain people
64. i am grateful I am very authentic about my feelings and needs so I don't get stuck in repression
65. i am grateful to have new dress clothes for job interviews 
66. I am grateful to paddle around on the surfboard today around sunset and feel Mother Ocean's yin energy overpower my being
67. i am grateful to have a positive job interview with a company selling windows and paint coating and I learned a lot about how the remodeling industry works in CA and how people can get tax credits to pay for remodels
68. i am grateful that all the time I spent with Shree Maa and Satyananda seems to have made me stronger
69. i am grateful I supported a friend today who got into a terrible car accident 
70. i am grateful to be aware that i need a new firm resolution in my life 
71. i am grateful I can get over hard things from the past
72. i am grateful to stop and rest today when i felt angry, lonely, and tired to HALT
73. i am grateful for the few material possessions that i have
74. i am grateful to have a van 
75. i am grateful to have a father who keeps his promises
76. i am grateful to let go of unhealthy situations
77. i am grateful to be back in touch with my Bear Dance family community 
78. I am grateful to make a Interbeing Coaching feedback form to welcome constructive criticism and appreciation on my website
79. I am grateful to watch some funny Mike Epps comedy tonight
80. I am grateful to have visited the Temple of Joy in Encinitas today to chant some Babaji and Krishna mantras
81. I am grateful to watch some great Nihang Singh Sikh music videos today about the Kirpan and Weapons to prevent sexual violence
82. I am grateful I reached out to my Nonviolent Communication friend Tera today to see about her beginner training and practice groups
83. I am grateful to have a bunch of new Shirdi Sai Baba pictures from the Temple the other day
84. I am grateful I have been getting to know Swami Vishwananda's website and YouTube channel
85. I am grateful I wrote down a list of my writing goals
86. I am grateful I put my Sobriety first
87. I am grateful I met a new Surfer Brother named Manamo today who gave me some teachings and we had a good spiritual discussion too
88. I am grateful I am focused on surrendering drama, fickleness, self-conceit, and haughtiness the last 20 years 
89. I am grateful I have an invite to a Sober Thanksgiving Potluck in Encinitas
90. I am grateful for the breath and doing mental mantras with the in breath and the out breath
91. I am grateful to reunite with my bro Eliot from the San Pasqual Tribe who I met at the Bear Dance out at the Pala Rez
92. I am grateful the Inner Divine Mother gives me love
93. I am grateful for the humility and bhakti of my surfer bro Swami Shri Dhar
94. I am grateful for the unconditional acceptance of my bhakti comedy brother Swami Adaityananda
95. I am grateful that when it comes to great Authors, its not the quantity, its the quality
96. I am grateful for a good quesadilla with Avacado Salsa
97. I am grateful for how tired I have been feeling at night and being able to go to sleep earlier than usual
98. I am grateful I took a cold plunge at Moon Light Beach today
99. I am grateful I chanted 1000 Guru, Vishwananda, Krishna, Babaji mantras at Moon Light Beach today
100. I am grateful I have been speaking in Wintu to the Native American spirits of the land and making morning cedar offerings with prayers
101. I am grateful for the Heart Light within me
102. I am grateful people give me feedback so that I can learn and grow
103. I am grateful for all my Sober friends
104. I am grateful I give food, clothes, tents, blankets to the homeless whenever I can
105. I am grateful God speaks through people to try to get me to improve my writing and its outlets
106. I am grateful that I won't put up with name calling, physical violence, sexual abuse, and corruption from Hindu Swamis and Sat Gurus or anyone
107. I am grateful for all my Native American Bear Dance Elders
108. I am grateful I am working hard for years to cultivate a lot of gratitude
109. i am grateful I listened to a Billy Graham sermon about silence
110. i am grateful for a beautiful Thanksgiving holiday at the Six Step House in Encinitas 
111. i am grateful I am watching documentaries about jail and prisons so I can learn how to be a better volunteer to help relieve the suffering of incarcerated people 
112. I am grateful I have the non-fickle strength to go by Shree Hari which is a tough difficult path fighting dharma battles no one wants to fight and pointing out things that need to be said that nobody wants to say
113. i am grateful my haughty fickle self-conceited nature has been wrecked and demolished by sleeping on the ground for 10 years, cleaning the poop/blood/urine of 500+ elders in 8 hospitals, 24 years of handyman labor grunt work, years of being a compost toilet manager having poop urine buckets splash on my arms, 12 years of being a janitor for Amma/Shree Maa choosing the lowest job I could, 14 years of volunteering in 10 jails/prisons, 40 years of volunteering at homeless feeding projects and kitchens, 43 years of sorting recycling/garbage, 5 months of meditation sitting in and face down in full body prostration at Amma's cremation pit in Amritapuri, 8 months of voluntary incarceration for militant social justice dharma war purposes, being punched in the face by 4 major women in my life, 2 and a half years of being homeless in a van, 7 years just having 2 bags of material possessions 
114. I am grateful I work hard to dissolve Hindu Caste Systems even though I am really disliked by some people 
115. I am grateful I have 8 billion friends and family on earth even if some of them hate me and dislike me
116. i am grateful I'd rather be authentic than liked/loved
117. i am grateful I survived six suicide attempts at strangling myself in jail and Isha Nath (Jesus) saved me and I pray to love myself everyday now
118. I am grateful to visit the Poway Sikh Temple again for japa, langar, and seva to help build our new Gurdwara
119. I am grateful I led a Native American Bear Healing song and played drums for the Hanuman Chalisas at the Temple of Joy Ananda Encinitas Satsang today
120. I am grateful for a solid nap today
121. I am grateful I incarcerated my cell phone and my laptop in my storage unit for 48 hours this weekend to go deep inside, enjoy nature, journal, rest and feel what I am feeling 
122. I am grateful for my new beard trimmers 
123. I am grateful to keep educating myself about prisons, hip hop, and Yogic teachings 
124. I am grateful for all the Neem Karoli Baba fiends that I have
125. I am grateful to listen to recent talks from my American Indian Movement elder Uncle Leonard Peltier 
126. I am grateful I work hard to dissolve the Hindu Caste System in USA
127. I am grateful I work hard to educate Hindus about Indigenous Peoples
128. I am grateful I work hard to build restoration justice systems at Hindu Temples even though swamis and Sat gurus are very stubborn with their book agendas
129. i am grateful god understands me
130. i am grateful I chose not to get physically gangsta after some perverts in the Hindu religion lineage touched my genitals without my consent 
131. I am grateful I still chant some mantras to the Hindu Goddesses
132. i am grateful I've found out that God is capable of creating healing circumstances in my life
133. i am grateful I listened to healing Turkish music from my culture today 
134. I am grateful I am in touch with a Publishing Company 
135. I am grateful I bought the book called the Artist Way today to increase my creative writing 
136. I am grateful I never bought a gun to shoot my mouth, face, brains, and heart out as I've contemplated before
137. I am grateful I decided not to lynch myself after the horrible ways I've been treated by Amma's and Shree Maa's lineages
138. i am grateful I've found out that my 17 years of training with the Hindu Divine Mothers was worth it
139. i am grateful I've faith that God and my 24 Sat Gurus will spiritually save me
140. i am grateful I've found out that Amma welcomes Restorative Justice and NVC Practice Groups Her Amritapuri Ashram
141. i am grateful I am learning to be more competent at Restorative Justice and continue to attend NVC Practice Groups
142. I am grateful I am fully on the spiritual householder path now and learned a lot from 12 years being a single celibate monk
143. i am grateful to find out that I need more healing
144. i am grateful to find out that Kali does protect me
145. i am grateful that Shree Maa is a trickster 
146. I am grateful Amma and Shree Maa came to USA with Hindu Swamis to increase our freedom
147. I am grateful that prayers take time to be answered and my heart needs to be ready to receive them
148. i am grateful 988 has saved the lives of many people and prevented many suicides, including mine
149. i am grateful I've found out that Kali, Chandi, and Durga are peacemakers, but their ways are mysterious
150. I am grateful that Swami Ambikananda is loyal to Swami Bhajanananda
151. i am grateful that I am working on being a better friend
152. I am grateful Hindus are learning more about dialogue, empathy, and restorative justice
153. I am grateful that I know how to dissolve enemy images
154. I am grateful I learn from my mistakes
155. I am grateful I am learning to be a better and better peacemaker
156. I am grateful to play Native American Drum for Hanuman Chalisa at the Peace House in Encinitas, CA today
157. I am grateful I went to the San Diego Amma Satsang Peace House and sang a Bear Dance Healing Song for the inmates in CA corrections and also to make sure we never have a Hindu Caste System in USA
158. I am grateful to have a vegetable garden
159. I am grateful I live at the Babaji Retreat in San Marcos and have turned my space into a Heart Light Temple in honor of my 24 Sat Gurus 
160. I am grateful that the Afro Caribbean Guyanese Divine Mother has entered my life and taught me many many things
161. I am grateful I did NOT send 1 billion emails to the Hindus over the conflict around sexual batteries at their Temple
162. I am grateful for my daily sadhana chanting to Babaji, Vishwananda, Krishna, and The Shree Guru
163. I am grateful to be three years sober from ganja and microdosing on magic mushrooms
164. I am grateful to be 15 years sober from alcohol
165. I am grateful to be 22 years sober from alcohol
166. I am super grateful for my incredible love, spirituality, and compassion 
167. I am grateful to be learning a lot more about culture from Africa
168. I am grateful to hear another beautiful sermon
169. I am grateful that some of my friends and spiritual teachers weren't supposed to stay in my life
170. I am grateful to be learning how to finally just get over the sexual abuse I've received from men and learn to let go of being stuck in victim consciousness 
171. I am grateful that things did not work out with certain friends and spiritual teachers in my life, otherwise I would not have the friends and spiritual teachers that I have in my life today
172. I am grateful that I am so health conscious and know a lot about health food and herbs
173. I am grateful for my friends
174. I am grateful we went to my favorite Indian market in Miramar today and I got moong dal for kitcheri
175. I am grateful we went and heard beautiful Christian music and a great sermon at the Rock Church today
176. I am grateful I've opened up my vulnerability as a man
177. I am grateful for my karma
178. I am grateful I pray that God helps me forgive those that hurt me most 
179. I am to watch some NBA tonight 
180. I am grateful I got down on my knees and bowed down to Shird Sai Baba
181. I am grateful to meditate in Babaji Meditation Cave
182. I am grateful to meditate outside in the garden today and perform my Japa
183. I am grateful to disregard any teachings I want from Hindu Swamis who think they know everything and are entrenched in a religion that has more people stuck in Human Trafficking in their country than any other country I know of
184. I am grateful I gave my Lady a knife so She can stab anyone who tries to sexually batter Her or rape Her
185. I am grateful Shree Maa and Swami Satyananda Saraswati proved to me that they are untrustworthy friends and don't keep their promises
186. I am grateful I got 10 hours of sleep last night and went to bed at 9pm
187. I am grateful I am working on yard work and clearing out rotten nuts from under the walnut tree
188. I am grateful for all the NBA Sports Commentary shows
189. I am grateful I have been learning to fully express my anger to the Hindus who did nothing about the sexual batteries I received from men at their ashrams
190. I am grateful I have put Swami Satyananda Saraswati in his place, for raping and murdering my wife in the 1800's and burning down Her Blackfoot Lakota Tee Pee.
191. I am grateful be chanting in the Babaji Bear Cave this morning, doing me japa... arrr matey!
192. I am grateful I disregard any Hindu Swami's teachings that don't resonate, especially when it carries the vibration of superiority complex and fickle haughty self-conceit
193. I am grateful that Shree Maa's Lila has really fucked me up in the head
194. I am grateful that the Goddess Lalita really creates a lot of upheaval in the mind
195. I am grateful for Cardamom on yogurt
196. I am grateful that Amma and Shree Maa feel really proud and happy about my getting ego wounded at their Ashram Battlefields and grateful to find out that Amma and Shree Maa aren't healing and unconditionally Divine Mothers at all, unfortunately
197. I am grateful that I am standing up against the Hindu Justice System and the sexual batteries I received at Hindu Ashrams that Amma and Shree Maa guilt to me that are my karma
198. I am grateful to make a lot of mistakes and keep learning from them
199. I am grateful to breathe
200. I am grateful to have 9,800 more appreciations to write in the next 3 years
201. I am grateful that I can be more Indigenous and spend less time on the computer
202. I am grateful I am an ego battle loser so I win
203. I am grateful I've not sent out a intimidating violent demon slayer email in the last twenty minutes 
204. I am grateful to talk with my sober brothers about life tonight
205. I am grateful to smudge the entities out of my aura on the beach
206. I am grateful that the sound of the waves is deeply nourishing and relaxing to my nervous system 
207. I am grateful that the sand is holding me beneath the feet
208. I am grateful that the role of the Spiritual Warrior Avadhuta Heyoka is a very difficult one 
209. I am grateful that there are certain battles worth fighting for in life and some are better to walk away from
210. I am grateful that people are working to end human trafficking and help the survivors 
211. I am grateful that I feel more relaxation after I connect with people I feel safe with that I can connect to
212. I am grateful for the suggested questions from Swami Satyananda Saraswati regarding conscious dating
213. I am grateful I am not in jail at the moment
214. I am grateful for the stars above the ocean
215. I am grateful I am trying to focus my writing more on this gratitude list and books even though I feel distracted and struggle to focus
216. I am grateful I haven't punished people with court retribution 
217. I am grateful for the community that I have
218. I am grateful I have not acted on physically violent images that roll through the mind when people cross me and violate me
219. I am grateful I love me even when others can't or won't 
220. I am grateful for raw salmon and raw tuna and the healthy oils in them
221. I am grateful for my many many failures
222. I am grateful to have a Free Will
223. I am grateful to notice the softness of the breath
224. I am grateful that I remember three past life deaths and the prayers I made at the end of those lives
225. I am grateful for slow dating and slow relationships 
226. I am grateful for my stubbornness in self defense to keep me safe
227. I am grateful that I have the lucky privilege to be alive during Kali Yuga and strive to live in Satya Yuga
228. I am grateful for all the basketball news as I love sports no matter how much Hindu Sat Gurus try to get me to be a monk and just read scripture 24 hours a day
229. I am grateful I rarely speak except to teach my experience 
230. I am grateful for the safe smoke wafting up into the formless ethers of the universe 
231. I am grateful I used to study incense smoke in my room as a boy to learn the lessons of form and formlessness and the impermanence transformation of the universe 
232. I am grateful to pray for Amma's and Shree Maa's lineage
233. I am grateful I've tried so many ways to overcome my anger problems from being sexual battered and physically beaten and I continue
234. I am grateful to connect with a 1-year-old child named Partha and his Mama and Papa and teach him karma yoga from Bhagavad Gita 
235. I am grateful to chant Hanuman Chalisa 11 times for Hanuman Jayanti at the Hanuman Cultural Center in Northern San Diego County
236. I am grateful I woke up and did my japa this morning 
237. I am grateful I played the drum for Hanuman Jayanti 
238. I am grateful I have messed up so many times and made so many mistakes and get to keep learning from them 
239. I am grateful to find out that I have more inner work to do, to become more selfless
240. I am grateful that I am still working on overcoming being vengeful 
241. I am grateful to find out I have more shadow work to do
242. I am grateful to watch a sermon by Bishop TD Jakes today about becoming Better instead of Bigger
243. I am grateful I went to the beach in Oceanside the other night
244. I am grateful to hang out with my Sober Fam in Oceanside the other night
245. I am grateful be working on repairing a fence, window, and security camera system in Oceanside
246. I am grateful for Kombucha and gut health
247. I am grateful I am meditating daily in the Babaji Cave here in Elfin Forest
248. I am grateful to be practicing various kinds of mantra japa
249. I am grateful I am still working out how to have a better early to sleep early to rise routine after struggling with this for over 30 years of being a Night Owl
250. I am grateful to be reading a good book about letting go of Character Defects called "Drop the Rock: The Ripple Effect"
251. I am grateful for the recent rains that we have had
252. I am grateful to have a outdoor toilet and outdoor shower which helps me be more immune to the cold
253. I am grateful for the chard, kale, zucchini, and broccoli in our vegetable garden
254. I am grateful I am setting intentions to be quiet, still, and silent on email regarding social justice battles
255. I am grateful I am practicing not talking as much this week, before the 2026 New Year's begins
256. I am grateful I am made a Financial Planning Music Video for myself to have chill fun, staying focused on goals and budgeting
257. I am grateful I had a lovely time at the Rock Church for Christmas Eve
258. I am grateful I had a nice time walking around San Elijo Hills square the other night
259. I am grateful I ask people working at Restaurants to pray over my food when cooking and serving so that they remember their higher power at work
260. I am grateful I saw a little read bird coming out of the shower this morning
261. I am grateful I stood 10 feet from a hawk on the fence here at the Babaji Retreat in Elfin Forest
262. I am grateful to watch all the ant trails beneath Babaji's picture in His Cave and thinking about them being blessed by the Mahavatar
263. I am grateful Gurunath Siddhanath gave a great spiritual talk about how the Kalki Avatar has been born in Sambalpur, Orissa and will reveal Him Self in 2032 at the age of 21
264. I am grateful that Sadhana breathes
265. I am grateful that I can't stop loving and forgiving Shree Maa and Swami Satyananda Saraswati and their lineage, no matter what happens
266. I am grateful God has given me so many Handyman projects this month
267. I am grateful I am like a Butterfly travelling between various communities and religions, spreading the Unity Consciousness
268. I am grateful to have a fridge and cupboards full of health food
269. I am grateful I am fighting off inner demons and praying to God to help me love myself so that I may better love others
270. I am grateful that life has turned out much differently than I expected
271. I am grateful to learn to think that instead of failing, I am learning
272. I am grateful I can do more to work harder to reach my full potential
273. I am grateful I have my own connection to Source now
274. I am grateful to have a simple office for writing and storing my handyman tools and snowboard
275. I am grateful to be working on a Vision Board to stay steadfast on my goals
276. I am grateful to pray to be divorced from Self Pity, Dishonesty, and Self Seeking
277. I am grateful to be cutting back on eating as much meat, in my own timing
278. I am grateful that God is the Doer of everything in my Life
279. I am grateful I start the day with Japa, a Bishop TD Jakes Sermon, Silent Meditation
280. I am grateful for the pictures of Babaji, Krishna, Jesus, and the Yogananda Lineage in my room
281. I am grateful for the picture of my 24 Sat Gurus at the bottom of this website
282. I am grateful for my love of watching Basketball
283. I am grateful to be over 15 years sober from alcohol now
284. I am grateful to be over 3 years sober from marijuana and shrooms now
285. I am grateful to be over 22 years sober from opiates and narcotics now
286. I am grateful for all the death threats and beatings that I have received
287. I am grateful that I am working on being more selfless so I can receive more blessings from God
288. I am grateful to be an ancient Spiritual being living in the world, in an ordinary life, amongst common people
289. I am grateful that God moves His instruments around like Acupuncture Needles
290. I am grateful for the Divine Mother's voice in my heart
291. I am grateful for my mood swings between Creation, Sustenance, and Destruction!!!
292. I am grateful for Salt Water on the skin
293. I am grateful for all the Aviaries here at Babaji Retreat and all the bird sounds everyday
294. I am grateful to have a Window in my room
295. I am grateful for the moments of deep serenity and deep quiet
296. I am grateful I have so many spiritual books
297. I am grateful for my malas
298. I am grateful I am alone in the crowd
299. I am grateful I am making steady progress on my gratitude writing goal
300. I am grateful I have a solid clear budget lined out so I know exactly what I am facing in the financial domain
301. I am grateful for all the bad and good karma that will come back to me in the future
302. i am grateful to listen to some positive Christian Rock on KLOVE before bed
303. i am grateful I went to the Sikh Temple this weekend for Darshan, Mantra Japa, and Langar this weekend
304. i am grateful I've been organizing more details of my bedroom to make it more zen, sleek, spiritual, and conducive to sleep
305. I am grateful I've been writing out some big inventories on my fears, resentments, and my character defects so I can pray to God, the ascended masters, the arch angels, and my 24 Spiritual Masters to remove my all my shortcomings 
306. I am grateful I've been researching what is the best gym for me to join where I can chant mantras and lift weights as I've learned that lifting and cardio is super good for my mental health, joy levels, emotional stability, and overall life balance and works better than a bunch of fancy Hindu rituals I think
307. I am grateful for my handyman work
308. I am grateful I have found a good gym and have been working out while chanting mantras and listening to spiritual music
309. I am grateful I have been trying to use NVC during conflict with my partner with empathy guesses and using OFNR texting if something gets a seed of being heated
310. I am grateful I did some oracle card readings on how I can approach some conflicts going on, which are natural and not dangerous
311. I am grateful to listen to some wind down sleep music before bed tonight
312. I am grateful to be reading a good book called Drop The Rock: Ripple Effect about strengthening physical and emotional sobriety on the spiritual path
313. I am grateful I got to pray with my Sikh family tonight in Escondido for the birthday of Guru Gobind Singh
314. I am grateful for a Bear Dance Family Sweat Lodge this weekend
315. I am grateful for noodle soup
316. I am grateful the Sikhs serve 200,000 people Langar Prasad at Amritsar every day, the largest free food feeding on Earth
317. I am grateful for my new Jesus and Mother Mary Candles
318. I am grateful I chanted mantras to Hip Hop Music instrumentals while working out at the gym the other day
319. I am grateful I went to a candlelight sobriety discussion meeting tonight and shared a small vulnerable victory from my heart
320. I am grateful to be surrounded by an Orchard
321. I am grateful I saw Orion's belt in the sky tonight
322. I am grateful I have been spending time with Blacks, Xicanos, Native Americans, Punjabis, South Indians, Asians and people from around the world where I live
323. I am grateful I continue to refine my plans and budget to attain my spiritual goals
324. I am grateful I am working on re-building and re-shaping myself after re-imagining who I want to be so I can have a stronger foundation to step into larger service
325. I am grateful to wake up and see the sun blazing through my window this morning
326. I am grateful for a wonderful sweat lodge yesterday with Grandpa Reuben and the San Diego County Bear Dance Family
327. I am grateful for time to go to the Escondido Gurdwara and do some Japa and take Darshan and Langar Prashad and make a new friend with Granthi Amrit
328. I am grateful I was able to get much better sleep last night and go to sleep earlier after the sweat lodge purification
329. I am grateful I failed on the path of being a Hindu Monk for various reasons
330. I am grateful to process various traumas during dream time
331. I am grateful I have laid out my goals, plans, and budget into one little music video presentation that I have made so that it is more fun to revisit than just a plane white piece of paper
332. I am grateful for the Native American Style Sense of Humor
333. I am grateful for a cold plunge in the creek in Vista, CA yesterday
334. I am grateful I drove to Vista and got to see the Pacific Ocean from 10 miles and then way off in the distance the snowy mountains up North towards Los Angeles
335. I am grateful I got a visit lined up with my Primary Care Doctor in February for a check up
336. I am grateful I am working on finding a therapist who does Internal Family Systems so that I may become more integrated
337. I am grateful I took a three day gadget fast last weekend and went to beach and temples in my van to pray and meditate 
338. I am grateful I am starting a new job in solar sales to utilize my degree in environmental studies
339. I am grateful for new clean clothes
340. I am grateful I've been singing Hanuman Chalisas for the cows
341. I am grateful I've been having some friendly dialogues with the San Diego County Sheriffs
342. I am grateful I've been watching sermons from Miles McPherson
343. I am grateful I've been writing down my worries and burdens and putting them in my god box
344. I am grateful I've been standing up to corrupt mean fickle haughty self conceited snobby Hindus and putting them in their place 
345. I am grateful my cousin found a place to leave at the Veterans Retirement Home in Washington DC 
346. I am grateful I've been going to the ER to get my thyroid and brain chemistry medication refilled
347. I am grateful I ran into my good brother at the gas station 
348. I am grateful for my shaving razor 
349. I am grateful to look up and be able to see the stars
350. I am grateful I have been talking to new friends in Phoenix and Arizona
351. I am grateful to be working for a Solar sales company
352. I am grateful for a new job selling solar panel cleaning here in Northern San Diego County
353. I am grateful for a new sobriety sponsor with 33 years clean and sober
354. I am grateful for the exciting trades at the NBA Trade Deadline 
355. I am grateful to smudge my room with sage to clean out the demons
356. I am grateful to stand up to Hegemonic Domination Colonial Divine Mother Hindu Justice Systems built on the rape and genocide of Native Americans in USA and CA
357. I am grateful for the heavy rains in San Diego this week
358. I am grateful to go to church at the Essene Retreat with my Dad this week
359. I am grateful I went to the Hanuman Temple in Miramar this week for Shivaratri
360. I am grateful to get a trauma healing massage this week to let go of suffering and relax
361. I am grateful I took a 3 day rest this week to let my nervous system decompress from the trauma of incarceration imposed by the Kamsa and Ravana demons in Shree Maa's lineage
362. I am grateful to watch some of my favorite comedians Dave Chapelle, Kevin Hart, Seinfeld, Adam Sandler, Jimmy Fallon, Conan O'Brien, and Dana Carvey
363. I am grateful for all the NBA Sports Comedy of Inside the NBA with Shaq, Chuck, Kenny, and Ernie
364. I am grateful I am studying a lot of Black History on LinkedIn for Black History Month
365. I am grateful Shree Maa & Her Lineage has been so brutal towards my ego to bring out the Full Shree Hari in me
366. I am grateful for Stevie Wonder's Superstition song
367. I am grateful I put together a 333 Playlist on Spotify this month
368. I am grateful to run and weight lift at Planet Fitness
369. I am grateful to be Self Honest that I am incompetent at Nonviolent Communication and Restorative Justice when there are sexual violations done towards me and that I lean into Hissing Rather Than Biting Communication
370. I am grateful that my feelings point towards my needs
371. I am grateful I cleaned out my inbox, sent mail, and trash to be in psychic clarity and non-attached non-complication
372. I am grateful I have not committed suicide yet, over how Shree Maa and Her Lineage of "Appear To Be Friend Sadhus" have treated me
373. I am grateful I am a total failure at building Restorative Justice Systems in Shree Maa's and Amma's Lineages
374. I am grateful I am a total failure at Hinduism and the path of the Sadhu
375. I am grateful my Background Check is all messed up due to my Militant Email Warfare to fight Hindu Demons and the colonial court police state legal system which is built on John Sutter raping 12-year-old Native American Girls
376. I am grateful I am financially poor because God does not trust me to manage His money for bigger service projects yet
377. I am grateful I can feel so sad about feeling the suffering of Native American children and people
378. I am grateful I am incompetent at peacemaking and conflict resolution
379. I am grateful for my deep suffering in jail and my Sacred Anger towards domination slavery legal systems
380. I am grateful for Poke Bowls and the healthy oils for the brain within in Salmon and cucumbers, ginger, and seaweed salad for the gut
381. I am grateful to go do mantra japa in my Bear Babaji Meditation Cave
382. I am grateful my Dad and I had a fun time watching the Killer Whale Show at Sea World in San Diego 
383. I am grateful I have so many weaknesses and things I have not mastered yet, so there is more to work on and work towards
384. I am grateful everything is so green in the winter in San Diego County
385. I am grateful that Shree Maa punishing me teaches me how to punish others but let God do it
386. I am grateful I can't but God can
387. I am grateful to always reflect on my 12 years as the lowest janitor in Shree Maa's and Amma's lineage
388. I am grateful Amma's and Shree Maa's Hindu Lineages are Anti-Nonviolent Communication, Anti-Dialogue, & Anti-Restorative Justice and are pro war, pro legal battles, pro cancel culture, pro incarceration, pro exclusion and they will get all their karma back times 10
389. I am grateful that Amma, Shree Maa, and Her Swamis are trying to ruin, destroy, kill, incarcerate, and ruin me
390. I am grateful for my Sobriety Support System Brotherhood
391. I am grateful I am getting into designing spiritual clothing
392. I am grateful to be making many new spiritual friends at the Rock Church in San Diego
393. I am grateful I talked to my bear dance chief grandpa and uncle yesterday
394. I am grateful I have been working on making a vision board out of an old surf board and painting it
395. I am grateful I have been studying Ephesians on www.bible.com thanks to my security guard N'Gai
396. I am grateful for Norm MacDonald stand up comedy
397. I am grateful to spend time in Ocean Beach this weekend working on my inventory
398. I am super grateful for drinking water
399. I am grateful for Shaq's service and humor 
400. I am grateful for fixing a bunch of pot holes on our rocky driveway 
401. I am grateful to get over 15 hours of reclining Vishnu Sadhana rest yesterday
402. I am grateful for the new Native American flute art project I've been working on
403. I am grateful I smudged my new 9 foot surfboard and prayed over it
404. I am grateful I've been working on some beading and bracelet projects
405. I am grateful I blocked Gmail and Fox News and YouTube from being accessible on my iPhone
406. I am grateful I constantly listen to Divine Mother Mantras in the chariot while driving
407. I grateful for my weekly Sobriety Meeting on the Beach at the Fire Pit
408. I am grateful for the vast blue infinity sky
409. I am grateful for Avacado vegetarian sushi rolls
410. I am grateful for Swami Shridhar's OM Circles and Kirtans
411. I am grateful to volunteer to host and serve sobriety meetings at Moonlight Beach Fire Pit for 6 months of commitment 
412. I am grateful to be volunteering with Rock Church to serve the Food Ministry and feed the poor once a week
413. i am grateful I am taking a bunch of moldy bread to serve the seagulls in Encinitas which I could not do if I was a monk living in a cave in India or some Hindu ashram where lazy sadhus smoke hella weed at the Ganga 
414. I am grateful that when I get sad I pray to Jesus to not let me wake up from sleep and then God gives me some service project to work on the next day
415. I am grateful for my new God jewelry 
416. I am grateful there is a Bear Dance Sweatlodge this weekend 
417. I am grateful a Cherokee Native American is being discussed to replace Kristi Noem as the Chief of Homeland Security 
418. I am grateful for my favorite foods: spinach, eggs, sprouts, bread and butter, avocado, guacamole, and sushi
419. i am grateful for the beautiful hills of San Diego County
420. I am grateful to be reading the Bible a lot today
421. I am grateful for my new Jesus necklace
422. I am grateful my divine father saves me
423. I am grateful for pink flowers
424. I am grateful to read the news and understand what's going on in the world to be able to talk to more people than just aloof Swamis who think they are better than everyone else